so many months without posting.  Kind of lost my inspiration.  I’ve been feeling like a failure and I hate that feeling. My knee has been F’d up and I haven’t been able to run ANY and the weight loss isn’t happening and I am just feeling LOST.  I just want to feel success and I don’t.  I’m turning 50 in 2 months and I promised myself that  I wasn’t going to be fat and 50 and that’s exactly what I’m going to be. SuCKS big time.  AWWWWWWWWWRRRRGGGG. That’s me screaming. Ha, I needed that.  I have got to get myself out of this bummed feeling thing and get my head back in it. I’ve got my health (except for the damn knee) and I CAN do this. WTF!!! Flippin A!!! I will do this

have gone by without posting anything.  I come and read all the postings by ben and pa and jed and even sherman but never have the energy to post.  Since jacking up my knee in July and giving it a rest until october for the Warrior Dash and then not being able to run after that I have put on 5  stubborn pounds that will not come off…So instead of being at my goal weight a year later I am 5 pounds heavier. Alas, I have no one to blame but myself.  I have remained committed in the exercise department and have been going to the gym at least 3 times a week.  Most weeks it is 4 times.  The holidays make it harder because my lunch hour is taken up on running errands and shopping for the holidays.  I have started trying to incorporate the primal eating habits I’ve been reading about in Primal 101 and Primal Body Primal Mind.  I am pretty much off of sugar, flours, and processed food. Most of the time. Lots of goodies are being brought in to work but I haven’t really been tempted to indulge.

So, here I go again, setting my goal to lose 50 pounds and be healthy and fit.  I must say here and now that I am in much better health (haven’t been sick but maybe 1 time this year) and pretty fit. Slowly improving in that area.  Was able to do a plank for a full minute which is pretty good for me considering I was only able to do one for 10 seconds when I started a few months ago.

I turn the big 5-0 in 2012!!!My GOD!!!How did that happen? I really want to drop some weight by then, may not be all 50 lbs I want to lose but maybe 1/2 way to my goal? Yes, that would be the absolute perfect gift to myself.  I really need to get my head into the game and get it done.

Starting the first of the year there is a “Biggest Loser” contest at work and I believe this time I will sign up and put my $25 bucks in. I MUST stay positive with No negative self talk. Stay FOCUSED and reach my goal. Besides the weight loss goal I want to be able to do ten military style push ups and hold a plank for 2 minutes and be able to do a pull-up.  I would be proud of myself with one.

So, I’ve put it out there. Set my goals for the new year and hopefully will not just read the posts but post my journey so I can look back and read it later.

Just did another re-read of all the posts trying to find out why WHY WHY I can’t seem to keep on track.  I lose focus and flounder and feel disappointed in myself.  I read a post  ben posted about needing to lose even though he’s lost a bunch.  I can’t seem to lose five pounds.  My mantra throughout these postings is to stay positive and stay focused.  Well, I definitely have not stayed focused.  I still make it to the gym 3-4 times a week.  I can’t run because I jacked up my knee at the San Francisco meet-up with The Do Life group. That has really bummed me out and I know I have put on weight from not being able to run and not controlling what I put in my mouth. 

So…again…I will say… stay positive! stay focused! stay in the game!!!! It is September 5th Keep going to the gym at lunch and get the workout in. So you can’t run…you can bike and do the elliptical and the weight machines. Just keep your mind in the game…one day at a time…one meal at a time…one workout at a time.

Go back to what you were doing at the beginning of the year on what you were eating.Focus on eating more vegetables, salads, fruit.  Stay away from processed foods, sugar and breads.  YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! Tomorrow is going to be fine.

and no post, computer broke!!! went to the meet up in san fran. very excited to get my pic with pa and to run with the daughter and husband and ben. met some very nice people. messed my knee up so now i have to start all over getting it healed by oct. have the hot pink run and the warrior dash. hope to get the computer fixed soon

So the 4th is the 30th day of going primal. Tried my best on the food front.  I was very successful sticking to the diet except for one day.  I totally ate cheezits!!! But I have to say it was a lot easier than I thought it would be.  No really horrible cravings. Breakfast was a little difficult only because I was limited to eggs. I incorporated veggies such as spinach, onions, mushrooms and such so it was very filling.

Weight loss was a very modest 5 pounds.

Gym workouts were o.k.  I haven’t been able to run because of my knee.  Once a week I would get on the treadmill and run a little. Did sprint intervals with walking at an incline for about 4 minutes and did a two minute sprint at 7 mph. for about 25 or so minutes.  Felt o.k. while on the treadmill and then that night and days afterward my knee gave me problems. So…after three times I’ve decided that I just have to stop the running altogether for awhile and let it heal completely and start at ground zero again.

I’ve been doing the TRX class at the gym every monday and I am feeling and seeing results in my muscles. That’s something I really am happy about.  It really is such a great 30 minute workout. The other days I am doing cardio on the elliptical or the treadmill and then working out on the weight machines or free weights.

So…in 20 days the San Francisco meet up with the DoLife group will be happening.  I think I talked the husband into going with me and the daughter is asking for the time off. Hopefully, we will all make it and get re-inspired in our efforts to grab life by the horns and get the most out of it.

Son is back in S.B. to finish one class and try and find a job.  I’m jealous only because he has the spiritual renewing pacific ocean in his backyard.  It is over 100 degrees here and I can’t stand it!!!

Now, off to help finish the bathroom by painting.

Happy Birthday, America…I love you!!!

Decided to commit to 30 days of going primal.  Haven’t been able to run lately because of my knee. That’s a bummer but I am doing my best on the diet front. I feel good so far. I’m still going to the gym 3 to 4 days a week.

My son just graduated from UCSB!!! I’m so proud of him. Good job.

So, I will try and post each week or more often and track my primal journey

haven’t posted in so long.  My workouts are still happening but the running has been lax.  I injured myself and can’t seem to get it going again. 2miles is all I seem to be able to do. I have been going to the gym and go 3-4 times a week so that’s a good thing.  My left knee, wrist and right hip seem to be giving me pain/problems. Ugh!!!!I hate feeling OLD.  Hope to get back on track and start dropping pounds.

Haven’t posted since the day after I turned 49!!  I think this birthday hit me a little hard. I’ve been non-motivated and feeling blue.  I have been going to the gym, though. I haven’t run in a couple of weeks due to a groin pull. OUCH. I have done a couple of classes at the gym. TRX and Bosu. Both kicked my ass!!! My legs are still screaming from Monday’s workout.

Diet has been iffy.  I do great at work and then want to munch my way through the evening. Still holding steady at 185. Ugh.

Well, I need to get back to feeling inspired and get my head into the game. Losing ground…all in my head, though.

Got to the gym CRUNCH at lunch today. Did 20 min on the bike and did 3.4 miles. Tried to do some of the machines but wasn’t familiar with them so did the inner/outer thighs and some bicep/tricep.

stayed on track with food but need to up the water intake. Day after birthday generally a good one

Was going to go to the gym but was invited out to lunch for my birthday. Had sushi. Very healthy.

Had an o.k. birthday day. Very low key. Lot’s of wishes on facebook. So nice and makes me smile. Phone calls from my sisters Mary, Sandy and Linda,and my mom.

Got taken out to dinner by the husband and drank a lot of beer. Yum…gotta love the beer. had a ribeye steak with garlic mashed potatoes and a salad. So good. Shared the steak with the hubby but ate all the potatoes. So yummy.

Now lying in bed getting ready to read and then go to sleep and start another day.

Stay positive…one step at a time. one pound at a time. one day at a time. one one one…they’ll all add up to success!